I have entered some kind of a void phase. When it comes to how I'm doing, I have had a lot of things in mind, but every time it comes to actually speaking on it, it is just somewhat void. I can't think of anything that accurately explains what I am trying to say. Or by the time I get ready to type or talk or explain, I get exhausted at the thought of it and decide it is not worth it at that moment. Perhaps this is part of the process of acceptance. I am sure it is, seems like a normal step anyway. I envision stepping out of this phase and eventually getting to that "thriving" phase despite the rheumatoid arthritis. It is a process I know. Days like today make that seem more challenging; I had to move my mouse to the left side of the keyboard again. My right wrist and elbow are screaming at me.
The Humira is working, it gives me 2-3 really good days per injection so far. And I got my new swimsuit in the mail (massively on sale for end of summer!), so things are looking up despite my right arm in general. And, I am officially 31! Hooray to be DONE with the medical onslaught of 30. A lot of great things happened last year, like my first juried art show acceptance, lots of great family time with my brother & fam, lots of ministry speaking opportunities... all in all, a linear timeline is the best way to go. I love the memories, but would never want to repeat this last year :)
